by Deborah Bernhardt

The opposite of striking him.

It is gawky to say.

Speech, a loose tooth.

That I'm in love I can't.

Wasps1 and wisps of words. My minutiae2 sentiments

could make your mind pruney. What if I fixate

on a M.O.M.A. Pollock, Echo, till drip lines

are dozens of shoelaces, tipped with lacquer and raging.

Daily strands3: Me, too, I or That reminds me of

Angling. Gawky, really gawky with this is where I went and what I did.

When I am the conversationalist

the less patient fi xate on a point

by my voile head. Mental pushpins scrape me:

the bored post notes.

Wholly detached listeners cast documents

right over my face, cutting and pasting text.

I myself concentrate on a speaker's lock of hair

just so I'm not waiting to chime.

As I was saying. When he held me, I was not a boring person.

Embarrassing, the need to peep, this saturation4.

Forgive me. One I adore absorbs

my excess speech (her eyeglasses solar panels)。

Another I adore fields my prattle5

despite her burning focaccia. All my talking

and I forget to charge the cordless. One who is

my poet-cousin-whom I also adore, and

shortly I would like to say more about her-

fi nds humor in that juiceless telephone.

Through my answering machine, gleeful-sweet:

I feel helpless because I can't hear you! Now I add

there is a gallantry to her poems.

I can't not say: the particulars of his handholding